fear of rejection Video (MV)

I wanna die before I'm thirty-three
So suck it up before you care for me
I get so angry in the meantime
I kill myself today, in my dreams

It gets hard to feel
I don't feel it anymore

I gotta dress, I'm going out tonight
I took a shot at destiny
She turned my life inside out
Fear of rejection and a sense of doubt

I don't know what's real
Are you real anymore?
It gets hard to feel
I don't feel it anymore

'Cause if I walk away this time
You will never hurt my pride
The end is always on my mind
I get scared sometimes

I'm addicted to suffering
The mania streams endlessly
Masochism in the bed
Turns out it was my own head