Painting pictures, pretty misunderstood
I report on what the grim reaper took
Knew I was off when I steady was shook
Life is too real, I could write me a book
Performing for free, they still don't want to book
Maybe God got me a different plan
Maybe my music was never that good
But what about friends, family, and my fans
Mentally scarred and at home overlooked
Many men I know been inside the pen
Couple of brothers left before their time
What I would give to do it all again
I have arrived at my destination
But I still would not say that this is the end
Longest out of all of my relations
And she gave me something that I never had
Real, real love, I never have felt real love
Though my mom kissed me goodnight
In the night I felt so lost
Know the night would turn out bad
Cause my daddy drunk and pissed
I must have been about six running upstairs
Gotta hide hit the light switch crying out loud
Hope I die quick, light switch on, see my mama fall
She drunk, I can tell by the makeup smear
Long lost loved ones, it's a curse
I blame it on cheap beer
In the mirror I can see myself want to disappear
But that feeling been long gone, I have fully disappeared
I covered the country, way before Canada
Way before CFS booked me a flight
First class back to the Rez back here
Seven years have passed and I still grow
Passport black now I'm legal
Everything weird cause I been here before
All of my aunties and uncles remember
Me and my diaper running on the road
Snow is all over middle of December
The world is so small
You end up together like you run in to people at the mall
Met an abundance of family members
My auntie told me give a hug to them all
Some I never saw again
Even though they live on the other side of the road
So it don't come obvious
That when some of them pass away
I don't need to know
But let me be real
I've been looking for love since I was a boy
I am no more in the place
To please everybody just want to enjoy
Even the ones who are close to me
I don't care we share the same blood
Some of them hate still living in it
While I got it out of the mud
Again and again Again and again
Again and again Again and again
Pray to God he wash my sins away For the many I had let them down
Save your tears for another day Cause you got me and we are all for one
Pray to God he wash my sins away For the many I had let them down
Save your tears for another day Cause you got me and we are all for one
Pray to God he wash my sins away For the many I had let them down
Save your tears for another day Cause you got me and we are all for one