Skyler Mair - So Long Lyrics

Dearly departed, where do i start this
Since you've been gone I have become so heartless
Trapped in a darkness that darkens and darkens
Plotting to escape because I feel like a martian
Can you tell me what it's like in the sky?
Can you tell me why you never reply?
So many questions never any answers my life's a disaster but still I'll survive
One step at a time, I'll juke and I'll jive
I thought this was over when I finished Goodbye
Yet the one thing I can't get off my mind
Is all of the time we spend in paradise
Illusive as day when you're crying at night
Lead me astray and tell me I'll be alright
F*ck off with the mask I don't need a disguise
I wear my heart on my sleeve so I don't freeze up inside
I've been back, from my past, funny, that you would ask
You see me gettin this money and now you say yummy when I tell you to lick my ass
Get in the back, I'm done wasting time with people who already threw away their last chance
F*ck, I'm about to snap, LISTEN
You said I would never be nothin, end up in a coffin
My soul is so rotten, it makes you psychotic
I'm done with this drama, you're done with my problems
But yet you keep callin, you think of me often
Holding me hostage to reach for my wallet
Whatever it takes for these pills that you're poppin'
Going to college in hopes you'd ackowledge
There's more to my life than just drinkin' and brawlin'
I'M FUCKED, I'm done
Maybe I was meant to live in the slums
Out here silently grinding only to ever return home with crumbs
What am I doin? I'm losin, got caught up and I feel like a nuisance
We're different, but we're human, and perspective is only an illusion!
So don't tell me what you want me to do
Don't tell me what you think I should say
The only reason that I made it this far is because I learned how to cope with this pain
Learn to forgive, but never forget
The ones you keep close are bound to collect
Come for my job and I'll come for your head
Can't seem to sleep but I made my own bed
I don't wanna' hear it, I'm done with these lyrics
I'm done with these people and I'm done with these spirits
This is my life I don't need your interference
Bitch you would be lucky if I made an appearance
Get off my back, I am a wolf
When you f*ck with the pack you'll regret the result
Playing the victim to children deep down you were nothin but another villain hiding in wool