There was a time when I was young and innocent
That was before I let everybody get in my head
Before the trauma, all the lies and all the pain
Before I hurt so bad I had to change my name
Before manipulations, cracked foundations, moments that would test my patience
Prayers to God to take it all away
Before I felt all of the self blame eat at me
Before I felt the devil crushing me and nobody could hear me scream
Before I asked God
Why me
I've been loyal, I've been patient
I said hallowed be thy name
I didn't ask to be a pawn in this wicked little game
There was a time when I
Had no doubt in mind
Thought that I was chosen
Wouldn't lose no hoping
Youth then I got older
Rocks turned into boulders
World fell on my shoulders
The thought of death became kinda comforting
I wondered when death was gonna come for me
I've been loyal, I've been patient
I said hallowed by thy name
I didn't ask to be a part of this wicked little game
Every man of God I asked said that I should be ashamed
So I had to tell myself
That I am not the one to blame
I am not the one the blame
I am not the one to blame
I'm not the one who should be shamed
Oh there was a time
There was a time when I was young and innocent
That was before I let everybody get in my head
Before the trauma, all the lies and all the pain
Before I hurt so bad I had to change my name
Before manipulations, cracked foundations, moments that would test my patience
Prayers to God to take it all away
Before I felt all of the self blame eat at me
Before I felt the devil crushing me and nobody could hear me scream
Before I asked God why me
There was a time when I was young and innocent
That was before I let everybody get in my head
Before the trauma, all the lies and all the pain
Before I hurt so bad I had to change my name
Before manipulations, cracked foundations, moments that would test my patience
Prayers to God to take it all away
Before I felt all of the self blame eat at me
Before I felt the devil crushing me and nobody could hear me scream
Before I asked God why me
Why me