Help me I feel so numb
Oh what have I become
Oh god I feel so numb
Oh what have I become
I'm drowning in doubt
I won't get another chance
I made too many mistakes
And f*cked up all of our plans
Shouldn't of broke your trust
Woulda held onto you damn
They say people don't change
I swear to god that I can
I feel so numb and so dumb
Burnt up like the tip of a gun
That shot twisted things spit from the tip of my tongue
Karmas catching up like some wicked web that I've spun
And it's like my life is over
When it had only just begun
Oh god what have I done
What have I become
I ain't even even high yet
Why am I so f*ckin dumb
I just don't get it
It all fell apart and I let it
Made every mistake I'm indebted
Said you loved me and you meant it
Swore you regret it when you said it
Self deprivation and I fed it
I feel so damn pathetic
But maybe I like the pain
Maybe i like all the attention
Maybe I am truly insane and I just forgot to mention
Help me I feel so numb
Oh what have i become
Oh god i feel so numb
Oh what have i become
I'm so sorry baby
I don't know what I'm doing lately
I don't know who I am where we stand
How to give back all you gave me
I was falling and you saved me
So why did I make you hate me
Never would have betrayed me
Nothin but f*ckin faith in me
I let judgment get the best of me
I failed every time you tested me
I've f*cked shit up so carelessly
And I've lived my life so recklessly
Should've known you was protecting me
Everybody else rejected me
Now its f*ck what they expect of me
And i'll never let em get to me
They wanna break then use what's left of me
And shame all that I do
But you make me see this through
That light in me
It comes from you
So how could I lose you
How could I just let you go
You see the best in me especially when I don't
You're the reason I wrote
That whole god damn sound
That beautiful feeling and flow that I found
I am who I am because I have you around
And I'm so f*cking sorry that I ever let you down
Help me I feel so numb
Oh what have I become
Oh god I feel so numb
Oh what have I become