Skullhunter's Diary - Janus' Masks Lyrics

Awaking from my dream
I've seen the horrors no one else can see
Disturbing reality or rather something else I cannot name
Or at least virtuality
I don't know it feels the same
Drowning in this wicked game with no aim left to see
Don't know who to blame
My heart beats unevenly
I'm ridden by fears and it's hard to breathe
I try to take a deep breath and focus on what's real
Suddenly I heard a voice
I turned around but there was no one else but me

But there's a blossom deep inside the core
Of my tormented soul, in the vaporized coal
A heavy lesson and a hundred more
From no on I've to abide this everlasting plight
Determination blazing by my side
I'll prevail all these fears
Cast away all my tears
Extermination fostering my might
Although my soul is so sore I will master this chore

The Janus' masks are my constant companion
Inwardly shattered I am unsure if to get on
The Janus' masks are a symbol of myself
Will I triumph or will I fail?

At least I am unbent
Strong enough to feel contempt
For those ones who regret everything will work out
And there is no doubt that I am the one to survive
Still didn't lose my faith
From now on to the grave
I hope to feel safe until everything aborts
And I start to become afraid
And there is no escape
Moods switching like night and day
Just can see black and white
Nothing in between and nothing left to hide

A burden to endure
Against all odds
Shall I triumph or lose?
Disregarding abuse
A dark path too obscure
Defecting gods
Set to conquer my mind
To unsettle, and to blind
This is my battle hymn
My spoken word
To my sworn enemy
The unknown majesty
You want to exploit my sins?
I'll forge them into a sword
You cannot make it undone
Our battle has just begun

The Janus' masks are my constant companion
Inwardly shattered I am unsure if to get on
The Janus' masks are a symbol of myself
Will I triumph or will I fail?