The truth surprised me, snuffed in the eye three times, sprayed
The blood of attachment sideways, late one friday evening
Leaving me lost, speeding, dreaming the highway
Dazed for 20 minutes then I woke in her driveway
Broken, sulking, drowning in thought, pounding the canvas
Man this sucks, my planets crushed, I'm famished
Damaged, bust the dam, i'm crying tears, mind flying the years
And there she is on the stairs trying her fears
She gets in the car, my minds racing
Through our initial friendship, first date, and love making
Exposed, naked, then I thought of how ill I felt
When she said if she "couldn't have me she'd kill herself"
And how that weighed on my mind, and the memories of
Arguing, her mistrust and jealousy
The diving board's telling me "take a leap in the deep end"
I looked her in the eye, a single tear told her its over and she said
"Why are you doing this to me? You gonna throw away everything we had?"
And I shook my head and i'm standing there, confused
Wondering why she hadn't packed her bag
And she said "What about our future? Damn boy... we had so much plans"
I said I'm thinking 'bout our future, thought we'd done enough damage
And decided I should take it in MY hands
Two and a half years of half cheer, fear, and half mildew
Its true: the one you feel the most will be the one to kill you
So i'm taking this drive, knowing that when I arrive
It'll be our demise, goodbye to all that I despise
But sadly, goodbye to all that kept me alive though hard times
Crying, i'm dying inside, but still driving 'cause I
Common sense told me "take a leap in the deep end"
I looked her in the eye, a single tear told her its over and she said...
"Why are you doing this to me? You gonna throw away everything we had?"
And I shook my head and i'm standing there, confused, wondering why she hadn't packed her bag
And she said "What about our future? Damn boy... we had so much plans"
I said i'm thinking 'bout our future, thought we'd done enough damage
And decided I should take it in MY hands
And so we have the last one, artsy
Beautiful as f*ck and the life of the party
We never had a beef, shit she'd never even start me
Re-taught me how to smile, made me forget that a heart bleeds
Lights candles at the right time, I spit she loves that shit
Throws the drama out the window, and makes love to Slint
Supports no matter what, alleviates my fears
Paints a picture of our future and appreciates i'm weird
We met in a fairytale, she woke me with a kiss
Flashed me a smile which broke me in its grip
Right down to pieces, built me back stronger
With support beams that won't rust to make us last longer
But I get a funny feeling when she goes off alone
Like i'm sick to my stomach when she talks on the phone
Ignorance told me "take a leap in the deep end"
I looked her in the eye, a single tear told her its over and she said
"Why are you doing this to me? You gonna throw away everything we had?"
And I shook my head and I said I don't know
I don't know
I don't know