Energy is a lie
Got a master degree in faking the funk
I took out the trash
Yall just a bunch of punks
No one means what they say
Groundhog Day continues
An endless replay
The scenes different
The memories vivid images
Of everything we say
How little words mean
No matter how loud u scream
The actions remain obscene
Gotta wake up outta ur day dream
So self righteous
Im the last living dyke bitch
Im not as strong as it seems
I got a tattoo of a dagger
At the age of Nineteen
To give the illusion of being tougher
I'm not indestructible delusions fading spirit waving
At the empty promises
At all the jaded words
That are meaningless
To feel so much you'd think would be bliss
It's pure torture trust me escape the abyss you've created in ur mind
Life is about human connection?
That's the biggest lie
Plastic is everywhere
Including myself no one's perfect
I'll see y'all in hell
No longer solid merely a shell
Stuck in a state of mind
A shade of darkness
Burned & scathed
I wish I was heartless
A shell of a person
Your opinion of me is so shallow
I'm cursed with the spell of permanent melancholy
But only in my writings you'll learn Im empty
I quit believing in people
A long time ago
The sunshine helps illuminate a pseudo glow
I'm Melting in the heat
Would u even know?
It's all just a show
A season of becoming unknown
F being enough for anyone
I'll always move forward & grow
I'm cursed with a heart that doesn't have pride
So rare I care; but when i do it doesn't evaporate into thin air
So keep your schematic dignity
& make believe imagery of me
We waste connections & forget that's this sham of a world's biggest gift
To speak to someone who sees u
Too bad they blind themselves
Stuck in assumptions: Makes me nauseous
The same repeating pattern;
Walks away as the door slams
I think of yall often but I remember the door got jammed
I sit in silence: so deafening
All I hear is a dial tone
Ring ring who's there
"Yo nightmare"
"Nothing was real"
"You f*cking idiot"
"That's why everyone leaves"
"Wipe yo stupid heart off yo sleeve"
"Times up it's been a year
Time for her to dissapear
That pain in ur stomach
No one cares
Your heart breaking
Whatever
The words meant nothing
The endless nights were a facade
You thought you met someone who Saw you
Aleena don't forget you're a f*cking Fraud
They'll always leave
You're not worth a convo
They run away because
I am here to ruin you keep on decaying"
"You cry n beg pathetically
No one gives a f*ck unapologetically
They left ur whole life
Redrum Love has never won"
I believe in 0 all the rumors are true
Pat yourselves on the back the destruction of who?
How does the sounds of ur heart beat
Lie?
I may be here
But am I even alive?
My own dagger stabs my eye
FUCK THIS
I wipe my own tears when I cry
(A A R)