I'm sick of the pity party
You owe me nothing
Not a thing
Could take you away from my mind
I'm lost in a different time
Unable to stay present
Is my lamest crime
Is it time to let go
Am i grasping for something that i spoiled
I just don't know
Hearts refuses to listen to the venom inflicted
A true metamorphous
Hunter and torturin
Poisoning
My
Mind
I'm lost and out of time
Fleur-de-lis
Valentine, divine
Ethereal, constant rewind
French kiss,
Your lips on mine
Timeless, always missed
Shut up aleena
I can't believe this shit
What the f*ck Cupid
Tell me i don't matter again i am stubborn i can take the hits
The confusion
"Just believe the opposite"
Control
Kryptonite
Blinded every time
Dark cloud so unkind
Energetically tongue tied
Battling grim reapers
That's a joke
They're just lost in themselves
I'm lost in my own jail cell
My own personal hell
Nothing makes sense
A season of unrest
Can i just f*cking get some rest
How many more chapters of this i fail every test
Getting feelings off my chest
Yes i'm a fcking mess
A year long dive into the deep end
Is this the end
Perhaps but i'll detour
What for
I'm becoming such a bore
I'm sick of myself
And sick of my daydreams
Haunted by the mean words
I'm cursed
By who gives a f*ck
It's just my luck
No one sound an alarm
It's my f*cking pity party
I live in my own sick self harm
Verbal torture
Is this nightmare f*cking over
Kidnap rehab
Sudden collapse
Unmasked
Heartbreaks kidnapped
Phones tapped relax
Mind control master plan
This year made no sense
How long has it been since
Am i dead to you
Where is the eulogy
And i'm a nuisance low vibe energy
Who ruins every damn thing
Until they leave
Disappear
No one reminds
You now
Who we are
So we waste away
Sunrise met by another day
I don't watch it anyways
Every color
Reminds me of my dead lovers
Memories they hover
It's too late to recover i let all of my fears in
In tears i don't drown i swim you f*cking win
Moved to florida
Enjoy your new life
Unfeasible
A 'catalyst like some other ppl'
Where were they
I keep dying
Surviving
Why
Are u ok
Am i lost in my selfishness
I can't pretend to be less
My
Heads a fcking mess
Im selfish
"She said she's allergic to shellfish"
Wish it went differently
How nice it would be
Just you and me
Im sorry for sucking
We'll see what today brings
Last night still stings
"Leave me alone how many months i been telling you this"
I'm gone
"We can f*ck all day in ur daydreams i don't give a f*ck anymore"
Alright babe hit me again between the eyes
Cross out my f*cking third eye
I'm dying
Stop crying
F*ck trying
Do
I do
What
Do
I do
That makes u want to waste me?
Or is it some code im not keen on breaking?
Nothing im not good on faking-
But not here.
Consumed in my room less room
Obsessing over flashlight moons
Conspired doom consumes
October 1 2023