Siski - Four Months Miserable Lyrics

I'm fading out
Get over it
This pessimist is back again
I'm dodging all my my friends cuz I can't seem to blend in with
Anyone, it's not you, it's everyone
Perfect's all I see
Not what you all used to be
Well I found myself in a drink
And I can't help but overthink
So f*ck everything
What's the point in staying sober
I'm still sad, just growing older
Growing tired of this demon by my side
Drink me to death
Cut me a line

Would I be a fool to say that I miss you
Like embers of May, my heart burns there too
Would it be a lie to say that I want you
I curse myself for things I didn't do
I wish I could explain exactly how I feel
Without sounding just like all my fellow men
So I'm giving up again
I can't erase you with my pen
So I'm getting high again
For you, I'm gone
So, so long
So, so long

It's coming out more raw now
And a part of me wishes you were still around
But I don't hate myself enough that I would rot here with you

Would I be a fool to say that I miss you
Like embers of May, my heart burns there too
Would it be a lie to say that I want you
I curse myself for things I didn't do
I wish I could explain exactly how I feel
Without sounding just like all my fellow men
So I'm giving up again
I can't erase you with my pen
So I'm getting high again
For you, I'm gone
So, so long

I know I told you that I could be decent
But I was blacked out on the floor
I can't promise I'll be here tomorrow
But I'll stick around for today
I can't promise I'll be here tomorrow
But I'll stick around for today