Simbulis - Relic Lyrics

Everyday when I wake from sleep and I speak it's not me
Every moment I project what I think you're wanting to see
Morph into a character I don't even choose to be
Stuck in a life that I don't have plans complete
Self-assured my favourite skin
Confidence so fake it's paper thin
Can't keep up with these roles I'm playing
Can't keep up with this shit I'm saying
Every single thing in my life is so fake
Despise every second that I'm awake
Despise every second that I'm awake

Now I'm crushed by the weight of the paranoia
Sick in the skin of the dimming gloom
That follows my presence everywhere I go
Every step I make marred by sorrow
Route of the cause I will never know
Always making promises I can't follow through
I will never know what it's like
To see outside of these eyes
Ready to surrender
But I can't even remember
How to eliminate the embers
That created all my anger
Will I ever feel alive
Will I ever feel alive

Now when I talk each sentence is scarred by fear
Every word I forget are the only ones you hear
Sometimes I burn sometimes I freeze
I cannot resist I've become so weak
Temptations eat inside of me
Twenty-three hours a day of sedation
What I would give to feel a sensation
My only vocation is fixation
I have no idea in which direction I'm facing
A nightmare from my earliest dreams
I feel like a memory

Sleep
Sleep
I'm stuck in a sleep
I'm stuck in a sleep

Now I'm crushed by the weight of the paranoia
Sick in the skin of the dimming gloom
That follows my presence everywhere I go
Every step I make marred by sorrow
Route of the cause I will never know
Always making promises I can't follow through
I will never know what it's like
To see outside of these eyes
Ready to surrender
But I can't even remember
How to eliminate the embers
That created all my anger
Will I ever feel alive