SHVUN - Mom Lyrics

A patch of flowers just spending hours doing nothing live in
Peace don't bother sending messages feeling
Anxious keeping my promises rather be
Home alone sitting comfortably than to
Laugh with friends and family call it
Blasphemy get mad at me I don't
Really care about what's happening
I'd rather live in silence hiding away
Avoiding the spotlight I don't want
Attention if that means that I might
Lose everything that I hold dear cause
That's the one thing that I do fear
I fear that Imma die alone
But I want to be on my own so
Couldn't ever open up it
Hurts me deeply like a smoker's lungs caught
Choking up on my own words
Hold my breath until the night's over to tell you the
Truth no I'm not okay my life's a
Mess and my heart's still in pain I'm scared of
People I hide emotions I'm scared to
Face you pray you don't notice me crying
Please please see through me
I want to be
Want to be free
Calm and collected strong independent
That's the way that my daddy raised me if he
Heard me say that he would probably kill me at
Least those the words that I've grown believing
Still acting tough can't show the cracks still
Scared of showing beneath the mask still
Bottled up still giving love but
Oh so close to giving up trynna
Find my peace shed off the old ways no
Jesus piece hanging off my body never
Was at ease praying for forgiveness so I
Had to leave behind the sermons I'm
Sorry mom you don't deserve this all my
Selfish antics got you sad and restless let me
Do my best from now til death cause I'm
Trynna live on your behest
On that cold night your warm embrace
Lit up my dead eyes I hurt you
Deeply dragged a lot of people now it's time to
Flip the page onto the sequel I've got
Work to do let me make you proud so you can
Show the world what I'm all about proud to
Call me your son truly one of one
I love you mom this story's done for good
Please please see through me
I want to be
Want to be free
So please believe
In what I'll be
I will be free
One day you'll see