SHVUN - Dear Friend Lyrics

Dear friend, it's been a while since we last
Talked or seen other since I was on trial
I noticed that you cut me off completely and to be honest
Shit stung me forreal when I thought that was behind us guess that
Wasn't the case you lied again when it was you that
Said you hated liars no I didn't forget even
Back then never felt that I was fully trusted that
I was just a stone while your future's bright encrusted I just
Wish that things had ended on good terms instead more fabrications
Wrapped it up and called it closure man if I f*cked
Up wish you spoke up when our going got rough
But you went and sneak dissed instead of just confronting me
But I guess it's just what it is we're far removed from those
Times hope you found your bliss our stars and moons sparkling on those
Late nights staying up until the daylight shining
Through the windows I'd do it all again cause the
Memories stay here with the pain a little heartache
Ain't nothing comparing it to those good days
So thanks I mean it even if you left me bleeding
Sincerely yours truly
I wish I did better
Instead I'm regretting
Can't let it go
As I'm writing this letter wondering if I've
Grown now that we ain't together
All those days still remember I should've been
Better now those days will never
Come again
It f*cking sucks man like I just want to f*cking
Disappear you know?
You wouldn't understand what I'm going through right now
Like this shit hurts real bad I don't give a
F*ck about you this is about me god damn it
I'm going through it
Dear friend, I know you probably don't want to see me
I know that all my selfish actions back then hurt you deeply
To this day I still think about it how just a single
Night's enough to ruin everything even when we
Sat to talk about it a part of us went missing listened
To me speak excuses knowing well that they ain't hitting home
Now as I've grown all those memories unfold that the
Stories even worse than I gave it credit for
Kicked you to the ground I spit in your face that's how I feel now
Wonder how you felt back then saw love turn to hate
In an instant and how can I complain no justifying
Talking bout my emotional state they say that
Time heals all but does it really? It's almost been a
Decade in the making maybe you've already carried on
So once again I'm saying sorry, got no excuses
Just wanted to say sorry
I'm not asking for forgiveness that's already finished business
Made my bed now Imma lay in it you might not care but I've been
Working hard to be a better me so no one else ends up
Turning to an enemy
Sincerely yours
I wish I did better
Instead I'm regretting
Can't let it go
As I'm writing this letter wondering if I've
Grown now that we ain't together
All those days still remember I should've been
Better now those days will never
Come again
Who are you talking to?
What about me?
Why aren't you paying attention to me? Did I do something again?
Look at me
Why won't you love me?
Life without you isn't worth living
F*ck you I'm leaving
Dear friend, I don't know if I should even say this
Do I deserve to speak or let alone be in your presence?
You threw me out after all those years I should be
Mad but deep inside I knew the ending coming crystal clear
I know I hurt you as a friend if you can even
Call me that fending me off while I'm a wreck
How you managed so long ain't got a clue cause I would've
Cut me off way earlier and you should've too it's
Insane how I tried to trip you up and played the victim when it was
You that took the measures got me tangled with the system gave me
Wisdom at the cost of you now all I've got is written
Words from when you cut me loose they still ring true I'm a
Shitty person used to be empty statements but in the
Aftermath no other words could be replacements
It wasn't you in the wrong no it never was just tried
Convincing myself that it was part of us even
If we never meet again just want to tell you thanks for
Being an amazing friend I should've treated you
Better living in different weathers if you ever read this
Letter I hope you found better
Sincerely yours
I wish I did better
Instead I'm regretting
Can't let it go
As I'm writing this letter wondering if I've
Grown now that we ain't together
All those days still remember I should've been
Better now those days will never
Come again
Hey it's me again just wanted to see what's up
How've you all been?
Guess you wouldn't tell me that
Well I've been doing better and I hope you've all been doing well too
Oh guess I'm out of time sending you all my best wishes
See ya