Shonasta - Fountain of Youth Lyrics

Laid across my single mattress
Amaretto on my counter
Trying to drown away my stresses
Beg the silence just get louder
I'm the one who's slowly drowning
Trying to stay afloat
I'm flailing
Missing all these deadlines and these targets that I am aiming for
I just spend all of my days spending my pay
I should move into the stores
Bought a new TV today
Sit by the speakers
Now I got no room for more
Probably chuck something away
Wait 'bout a week
F*ck it I'm buying Tom Ford
Allysha be taking my card 'cause I cannot be trusted with cash
I'm a financial whore
Ma I wanna drop out
This ain't for me
What am I gonna tell Dad?
How you think he gon' react?
Will he disown me?
I know he'll probably get mad
But I don't wanna pursue what he wants me to do Ma
His vision's not the one I have
Think we just need to sit down and talk all of this out
I'll explain if you give me a chance
That's why I got respect for you
You listen to me whereas Dad will just try to talk over
Gotta be drunk to be disrespecting him this bad in our culture
Just pray I get sober
This ain't no fountain of youth
Ain't no fountain of youth and I know
Still sipping up on the juice
Control me? I can't anymore
This ain't no fountain of youth
Ain't no fountain of youth and I know
This ain't no fountain of youth
This ain't no fountain of youth
I know the truth
This water it makes you look older
That kid you knew from before who's afraid to speak up
He grew up
He grew tough
Now he's bolder
Had no one watching his back
Once got attached
Learned to look over his shoulder
Once put his trust in another who f*cked him right over
And that's how the kiddo turned rogue
This ain't no fountain of youth
Hold onto your coppers
Your wishes mean nothing to me
Where was your input when I put the work in
When I had to hustle my way through these streets?
Now it's all coming together
You wanna pretend you supported when I was in need?
When I flopped A-levels how you were laughing
And now you're here gassing fam - blasphemy
I moved on
I moved up in the world
Let that hoe go
Got a new girl
Still I can't run from my demons
Fifth time I'm shooting my semen
Can't hold myself up
I'm leaning
Goes through my phone and she's grieving
Fifth time we argue this evening
Pack her shit up
Now she leaving
Bruh
Just pray I get sober
Pray I get sober
This ain't no fountain of youth
Ain't no fountain of youth and I know
Still sipping up on the juice
Control me? I can't anymore
This ain't no fountain of youth
Ain't no fountain of youth and I know
Still sipping up on the juice
Control me? I can't anymore
This ain't no fountain of youth
Ain't no fountain of youth and I know
Still sipping up on the juice