Shinseiji - Rue Lyrics

My enervation drops deep as my sorrow
I don't trust and I don't want no morrow
Beyond the walls of thoughts my pain is defined
I am loosing all hopes in my Hell state of mind
Hated, betrayed, never tasted love
Not because of I don't want to but I simply can't
Tired of striving, tried off this feeling
With rue my heart is laden just because I was believing

I just wanna wake up and find out this is a nightmare
'Cause I'm falling into disrepair

Is this the end?
I hear myself screaming
In essence of silence i'll be redeeming
Tired of striving, tried off this feeling
Rue is my opium for not revealing your eyes

The only thing I can trust to is my pain