Shep - Won't Help Me Lyrics

A demon came to me in the form of a cigarette
Told me this'll make you happy if you ever feel depressed
Burn the flame and turn away from all you're family and friends
Can my body be an outfit, cause I'm tired of who I am
Wanna change, wanna change, do I really want a change
Turn away from my face. Guess it never goes away
We're okay, we're okay. Just addicted to the pain
Not the same, you and me.
But the pain still deceives
Make me numb, make me numb I just wanna feel alive
Keep me young, keep me young till i grow old and i die
Bite my tongue and stumble humbly fail every time i smile
I'm afraid of becoming what i'm gonna be for a while
If i stay like this
I don't wanna hit the grave like this
What's the price i gotta pay to be brave
I'm a slave to the crave wanna die on a night like this
Tell me what i need

I need
You in my head
Conscience kinda dirty God I don't know where I've been but
I need
A little more than this
A little more cause this won't help won't help me

A demon came to me in the form of impure sex
Told me this'll make you happy and will make you gain respect
This is pleasure, this is pleasure. This is nothing you'll regret
Too much pressure, too much pressure. Don't conform to fitting in
Is there a pill i can take
That can fill all the aches
What's your count, is it high
Tell me now, is it fake
Did you find what you search
Satisfy me with words
Fill the void with a temporary joy that leads to hurt
Am i happy yet
Cause i'm not feeling happy yet
I need more physical satisfaction
That critical tactic has an ability to keep pulling me back and i've had it i've had it
I don't wanna stay like this
I don't wanna hit the grave like this
What's the price i gotta pay to be brave
I'm a slave to the crave wanna die on a night like this
Tell me what i need

I need
You in my head
Conscience kinda dirty God I don't know where I've been but
I need
A little more than this
A little more cause this won't help won't help me

Jesus came to me in the form of a Holy Ghost
Held me tight and lifted me up but we never really spoke
I said God please be close to me you don't have to do much
And in that worship song I swear I felt God's physical touch
Gave me chills, gave me chills
He just resurrected me
Keep me still, keep me still
If i run away and leave
I thank God i don't get what i deserve for being me
Why on earth did i try to avoid what i truly need
Is it drugs, is it sex
Is it love and respect
Kinda tough to express it, just feel it (just feel it)
Does it come through a check is it something i inject
No i found my joy through the Holy Spirit
I'm glad i know it stays like this
Cause i really wanna stay like this
Cause the price that he paid was insane
Watch him raise from the grave just to save a dirty soul like this
Found what I need