When I was seven my momma used to beat me
To death for everything I have done
I will beat your ass if you start crying
In public motherf*cker
I will beat your ass if you disappoint me
In front of your teacher motherf*cker
I will beat your ass if you start bitching
About your life
When I was nine I saw my father
Beating my own mother to death
That shit put fear in me
But that's how life it goes
My father was a wise man
But he was living for money and his pride
That shit is consuming him
Like I consumed the weed when I was 19
With a friend from the mad city
I was living in
At 20 I almost died
In front of my father
From an epileptic problem
He was so scared that he left me
In the coma
And run for some help
I woke up at hospital
My momma was there holding my hand
I stood there than came back home
But I didn't learn my lesson yet
So I went in my room
Start talking to myself
How I am moving and living
My own life
I only knew what it's gonna happen
Next
Is either I give up
Or pushing harder
For my own sake
Than I realize how cruel this world is
That sometimes I want to put a gun
At my head and blown my brains out
But I can't
At 21
I have seen how people judege and think
We live in a scociety
If you say something wrong about the hood
You get killed
Robberies and f*cking bitches
Everyone is desiring more paper
And power
And f*cking more bitches and more bitches
Everyone is being mad about something
That they don't have
I was a good kid
But being judged by a lot of people
But the city changed me too
The people changed me in worst that
I was before
I was conflicted with myself for years
I wanted to give up
My biggest fear at 21
Was beaing judged by everyone
Since i have seen how cursed the world it is
Bitches showing their tities on a platform
To make money and live with that
For their rest of their life
That's a shame
I feel like this internet is killing us
Day by day
I live in this world
And I pray to God for the next day
To be a better day
But I wake up with more problems
That I had yesterday
History repeats itself
That's what Kendrick says
If I learned something in my life
Since I was a kid
No matter how much you struggle nigga
Nobody will save you
Only you can save yourself
Don't let this world f*ck you up
Live your f*cking life
Yea live your f*cking life