My anxiety is not helping me forget you
But i guess i really don't want to
And while i'm trying to figure out
What i should text you
Have to remind myself that i already lost you
I know sobriety would probably be a good call
Been breaking down my body like it's drywall
But you've been flying through my memory
Like a baseball
So i've been running through what i would say
If you called
I never meant to hurt you
I just had alot i had to go through
Had alot of shit i probably should have told you
Like how beautiful you are
And that i love you
Switching up the layout of my bedroom
So i don't have to wake up in the spot we used to
My anxiety is not helping me forget you
But i guess i really don't want to
Rolled up in an uber to your spot the other night
Left my crew back on the tour to try
And make this shit alright
I showed up at your door i had my bag and i was begging
And i know that you weren't having none of it
I understand it
I certainly do not deserve another ucking second
But when you hit me up and said we're done
My plane already landed
Trying to be a man and say goodbye to you no crying
But i f*cking miss you
There ain't no point in lying
God damn
I never meant to hurt you
I just had alot i had to go through
Had alot of shit i probably should have told you
Like how beautiful you are
And that i love you
Switching up the layout of my bedroom
So i don't have to wake up in the spot we used to
My anxiety is not helping me forget you
But i guess i really don't want to
It's been a war making peace with my ego
Just when i think that i'm free though
He got something up his sleeve though
He ain't ever letting me go
Trying to murder my ego
Just when i think that i'm free though
He fashions me a new halo
He ain't ever letting me go
He ain't ever letting me go.