The Santtu Pesonen Project - Pessimist Lyrics

For five years, I've been stuck in the same old limbo
Wanting to feel loved, but being fine without
Wanting to believe one of these days, it'll come my way
But there's this one thing clouding my better judgment
My mind insists on fighting against itself
As to its cause, I'm never sure what to blame it on
Inside, I remind myself
Still of my lack of success
Struggling to silence that thing
When I would need it the least
Fact of the matter is I enjoy things as they are
Even with the complete lack of a romance
Besides, there's only so much that I'm willing to sacrifice
For my alone time is something that I cherish
Arguably even too much for my own good
Either way, I'm past wallowing in that pit of despair
I don't mind staying alone
Still, if I said I'd prefer
To die with no one by my side
That would be a lie
Inside, I remind myself
Still of my lack of success
Struggling to silence that thing
When I would need it the least
Can you please stop teasing me?
It's hard enough without your screaming
So goes by another day
On both sides of the fence
No star shines in the sky
For they all have long since died
Who are you to talk about fate
When you never believed in it?
I'm done with your excuses
So don't even try swaying me
Trust in them when they say
Someday you'll feel that flame
Burning within your soul
And you'll know it's not just you