Wanna go
Wanna be alone
I'll stay at home
They'll never know
Back when I was 16
Lightweight naïve mindset with big dreams
Sporting Nike snapback with the ripped jeans
Daydreaming 'bout being on the big screen
Because inside of me had a fire
The eagerness to achieve greatness was a desire
Confident I could reach Mount Everest and go higher
Watch motivational videos and get inspired
I would watch them overcome, think I could do the same
See them strut passed the struggle like they knew the way
And for a long time, just wanted hard times
So I could go through hell and back like my stars shine
Until I, myself fell down a steep slope
Forgot 'bout videos, man, I just need hope
Watching people, through a peephole
Light years away, I just wanna be alone
Wanna go
Wanna be alone
I'll stay at home
They'll never know
Wanna go
Wanna be alone
I'll stay at home
They'll never know
I been searching but there is no way out
Take a detour but end up on the same route
This depression got me locked down, need to breakout
This is not my essence, I ain't true to me
I'm so malnourished, my clothes using me
And usually I'm ecstatic, hyperactive
But my body absorbing only energies that are gloom and bleak
I wanna be happy but the depression resistant
The rainbow after the storm is nothing but figment
Of imagination, wanna go on a field trip
A pill trip out this world treating me distant
I miss them days where I wasn't dejected
It's been long enough, 20 years, I should end it
It's not that the world is better off without me
It's that they don't even notice my existence
Wanna go
Wanna be alone
I'll stay at home
They'll never know
Wanna go
Wanna be alone
I'll stay at home
They'll never know