Sam Claudio - Darkness Lyrics

Now I lay me
Down to sleep
I pray the Lord
My soul to keep
If I should die
Before I awake
I pray the Lord
My soul
To take
My friends are telling me I'm careless
But my brain is telling me that I should care less
Dancing in this fine line
Clouded thoughts in my mind
I don't see the light shine
Only darkness
I said
My friends are telling me I'm careless
But my brain is telling me that I should care less
Dancing in this fine line
Clouded thoughts in my mind
I don't see the light shine
Only darkness, yeah
I never listen
I'm ignorant, stubborn
I'm always dismissive
Of opinions f*ck 'em
Outta my element, it's evident
Look at the drugs, the evidence
Go berserk like Eminem
Gon' hang myself, ain't hanging in
Light up the blunt, I'll take a f*cking whiff
That shit ain't strong enough, I'll take another hit
Another hit
Another hit
Another hit
Another hit
Another hit
Now I'm feeling weird
And my limbs are numb as shit
I head for the phone but I feel like it's a mile away
Limbs are weak as shit but I feel like I'm too high to stay
Feel like I'm in that Peele flick, can't get out the sunken place
Framing getting smaller falling deeper in my f*cking grave
I shoot out the door
I move like I'm Bolt
I'm too high to know
Might look like I'll fold
My buddy hit me up, I should really call back
I'm too busy running barefoot on the tarmac
Focused on the road ahead
In my Gildan underwear
I'm too lost and f*cking scared
Hoping I don't fall back
'Cause my heart's beating slow
Will I die? I need to know
I am on the streets alone
Frantic as I scream for hope
Thinking of my family's death, shit, I'm still not over those
Is this how Mac Miller felt when he popped all those?
Anxiety surges through my pores and it overflows
Holy f*cking shit, I think I f*cking overdosed
My friends are telling me I'm careless
But my brain is telling me that I should care less
Dancing in this fine line
Clouded thoughts in my mind
I don't see the light shine
Only darkness
I said
My friends are telling me I'm careless
But my brain is telling me that I should care less
Dancing in this fine line
Clouded thoughts in my mind
I don't see the light shine
Only darkness, yeah
Skin tearing under my feet
Paint my blood over the street
Still aghast I can't believe
Hoping that it's just a dream
And I
And my limbs done gave out
Feeling there's no escape but death can't be the way out
I can't the difference between sweat or blood
I done made so many movies I'm living one
I low-key wish this only stayed in cinema
I been doubtful about heaven but pray to God
Gotta keep running because if I don't I'll fall
And when I do through the cement and dirt I crawl
Wish I had my phone so somebody I could call
Get top on the phone right now, wanna call my pops
F*ck
I'm too young, I'm too young
Can't believe what I've done
Harmless hobby just for fun
Was it worth it?
Was it necessary?
Don't want suicide anymore 'cause the end is scary
Chunks of my body on the ground from dragging myself
When I die there will be nothing left to bury
Ashamed faces as I'm lowered in the cemetery
I'm sorry, momma, but please don't ever resent me
I just wanted to forget 'bout these problems in my head
I never would've thought it would lead to my death
Don't wanna leave you alone
Don't wanna leave you alone
But my mistakes are charging me life sentence as a toll
Don't know if you've noticed but lately been glum
They say it's all in my head and maybe it's nun'
I know you buried your father and your husband too
But I f*cked up, you'll have to bury your son too