Sadboykav - am I alive? Lyrics

Sometimes I find when I'm alone crazy thoughts'll just fill my mind
The voice inside my head said I'll be dead yet I'm just killing time
Well yeah I've taken drugs I wonder like f*ck, shit, will I die?
I've taken way too many drugs I can't function but still I fly
Why am I stuck all by myself while these crazy thoughts fill my mind,
Wake up every morning stumbling im wondering will I die
I promise you won't know what you can accomplish until you try
All these attempts to slow me up hold me down, but still I fly

Oh my, look to the sky
It's a bird no it's a plane wait, like nah that's just the kid and all this worry lurk my brain
It's so cloudy in my head, it gets worse than hurricanes
This purple rain won't show no mercy 'til the whole world heard the name
I won't stop until the world is changed
The pot I burn some purple strains,
Wish I could reverse the pain I flirt with death I'm worthless wait that's only just the words they say Sometimes I'd prefer to die, damn that'd be a perfect day
I think I deserve to die anything to take the hurt away yeah
Hm, I trip for the perspective a bit obsessive its excessive
Yes you'd guess it's schizophrenic
You stress and hate but reassess
Reflect your insecurities it's offensive and did I mention
I heard behind my back people said they wanna kill me
F*ckin' do it then
That's all I want just being honest why do you pretend?
I could use a friend
Suicide through my head, what the f*ck to do instead?
What the f*ck did you expect?
Where were you to prevent?
Said I feel like dying why wait 'til I'm truly dead
Pursuit for overdue respect
Depressed I do confess I'm stressed 'cause I don't get why I get too upset
I been through a lot I guess you never knew me then yeah
I don't know what else to do
No one help but I'm selfish too
Feels like you been through hell oh well myself I've felt it too
Why do they love to complain expecting something to change?
Don't give a f*ck what they say
I'm out of luck just stuck in my ways but nothings the same
I'm f*ckin' insane had enough of the pain

Lost in my mind
Killin' time
Well yeah I've taken drugs I wonder like f*ck, shit, will I die?
I've taken way too many drugs I can't function but still I fly
Why am I stuck all by myself while these crazy thoughts fill my mind
Wake up every morning stumbling im wondering will I die
I promise you won't know what you can accomplish until you try
All these attempts to slow me up hold me down, but still I fly

Why? Oh, why? Why? Why am I alive?

Well yeah I've taken drugs I wonder like f*ck, shit, will I die?
I've taken way too many drugs I can't function but still I fly
Why am I stuck all by myself while these crazy thoughts fill my mind
Wake up every morning stumbling im wondering will I die
I promise you won't know what you can accomplish until you try
All these attempts to slow me up hold me down, but still I fly
Sometimes I find when I'm alone crazy thoughts'll just fill my mind
The voice inside my head said I'll be dead yet I'm just killing time
Well yeah I've taken drugs I wonder like f*ck, shit, will I die?
I've taken way too many drugs I can't function but still I