Stuck without a purpose
Lost beneath the surface
Of my own
Decisions and permissions
Feels like I'm
Left here to stay
Don't know how it got this way
And I kept wasting
I kept fading
To throw away myself
And anybody else
So how do you find yourself?
If you always wanna go
Down your own damn road
It's a lonesome quest
And you won't find rest
Till you find the self you loved who left
No water but keep drowning
Yet I'm still surrounding
Myself with
Smokescreens and fake scenes
Feels like I
Staged my own parade
To leave the person I once made
And I kept searching
I kept learning
To climb my own wall
Before I start the fall
So how do you find yourself?
If you always wanna go
Down your own damn road
It's a lonesome quest
And you won't find rest
Till you find the self you loved who left
Who left
But don't dig the past
These ideas should be trashed
To come home
If even alone