S1lverballer - Lost in Thoughts Lyrics

I hate being so nihilistic
Seeing no faith in nothing
But being so optimistic
Dead end towards the end
Gotta get it in my head
I gotta live my life
Cause soon I'll be f*ckin' dead

I can hardly breathe
I can hardly see
How you into me
How you gonna be happy with someone like me
I'll do my very best hopefully

But while I'm out here flowing and coping
I'm building a coffin
I don't know when it's gonna be finished
My reason for living is you, yeah we know that
Wait til I slip up and blow everything we both stacked

You dont know that I'm a psycho
Murder on my mind
Took two lives in the night, though
I don't wanna talk much about it
But you might know
Younger me is killer me
Older, I just hide now

But I'll never know who I am
I'm a two-in-one package which I'll never understand
The idea that you love me would have never reached my head
Had you never told me you loved me back
I would be dead

Look at me
Now look at you
You're a goddess
I'm just below you
Now look at me
Now look at you
You're a goddess
I'm just below you

I need you by my side
Please don't let our magic die
I just need a bit more time
I just need a bit more time

I just need you by my side
Guarding angel
Help me fight
So we can both survive
'Til we kiss this cruel world goodbye