Ryleigh Theresa - The Understudy Lyrics

17 years old
Laying in my room
I'm crying bout a guy
I never really knew
It's 3am
Laughing on the floor
Prank calling him again
I think I was just bored
I tell him I like him and then I run away
I'm just so scared of being loved in that way
I wanna find
Codependence that's endless
Not mutually unspoken
When we both need the attention
I want to find someone
Who really truly sees me
So I'm not playing the role of
The understudy
30 years old
Buying a house
It's what we said we'd do
If there is no one else
I'm scared of commitment, I'm scared of being sure
So I'll push it down and hope I find a cure
I wanna find
Codependence that's endless
Not mutually unspoken
When we both need the attention
I want to find someone
Who really truly sees me
So I'm not playing the role of
The understudy
La la la la la la
La la la la (la la la la la la)
La la la la la la
La la la la la la
What if I'm lying to myself?
What if I never truly felt it
What if I tell the whole world
And then I come back feeling helpless
What if there is no one else
Who understands the way I am
What if I'm incapable
Of being more than someone's friend
I wanna find
Codependence that's endless
Not mutually unspoken
When we both need the attention
I want to find someone
Who really truly sees me
So I'm not playing the role of
The understudy