RoyMxsic - My Truth Lyrics

So I've been thinking for a while now, and I um
Don't know what to do
Stuck in my head, this place is my tomb
My thoughts like flowers need space to bloom
So I really can't think when I ain't got room
Can't breathe when I ain't got the space to
Chokin on air and I really wanna break thru
(So is this a break through)
Nah It's just my truth
And when I need help Ill come to you
Ill pray to God
Even when I change into someone I'm not
And to speak honestly, I just wanna fall asleep
But my head is killing me and it won't stop
So
Just give me time to grow
I'm On my way up I was down below
I can only rise with your hand to hold, bro
I can't live when I'm all alone
But hey, it's not hard to talk to me
Reach out dog laugh take a walk wit me
Mean the world if you just would respond to me
Chillin with you, that's where I wanna be
So I'll send the first text
Every time too lemme know what's next
Still hitting up chicks but it ain't for sex
One two step process
Cause, effect and
Then what I turn to, my music and rhymes
Release how I feel when I'm writing these lines
But I hide what's real when I say that I'm fine
Cuz you still don't get that you're why I'm alive
Yeah It all comes down to this time, this time that we live in
My perspective and yours, now those two are different

And something I figured out recently
None of my friends really know what they mean to me
So many songs about lovers and girls
But nah, I'm on a whole different frequency
Cuz they got my back
No partner of mine has gave what they have
I'm thankful for you so never forget
That I love you all, And I'm in your debt
Cuz as for mistakes, yeah I've made a few
Like putting you down just so I could look cool but
Both of us know that you're killing it dude
So yeah you can hate me, I hate me too
I hate that right now I got nothing to lose
I hate that it feels like they're making me choose
I hate that my work and the grind and my life mean so much to me and nothing to you
And I want the truth, but say it's not true
Tell me you don't wanna watch as I lose
Tell me that these bars I spit on this track, you'll think about what they say all the way through
That you'll support me as I come as I go
That you'll be with me from my highs to my lows
Just understand, the sadness is vital so stop telling me like you don't think that I know
Looking at lines like I'm on a tightrope,
Livin my life with both of my eyes closed
Wanna survive, but I don't wanna try tho
All of these lies, but I know their my own
All of these tries, and I can't get it right but I won't quit man not without a fight,
I won't sit here, vision clouded by fear, I
Wanna work hard enough to live my own life
Wanna keep breathing till I can free my mind
Wanna stay above water till I hit my prime
Wanna shield the light so I can sleep at night
And I really wanna mean it when I say that I'm alright
Wanna feel your love deep down in my chest
Wanna praise the lord cuz I know that I'm blessed
There were 6 whole days fore he could rest
So I got 5 more, with no regrets
It's Roy