Royce Williams - Thru It Lyrics

Had a conversation with my baby
Discussing how disgusted I was with myself
She told me
Accept what you cannot change and change what you cant accept
That advice wisdom hit me like

Sorry momma I
I've been being prideful
Walking thru life with a blindfold
Haven't been reading my bible
My mistakes were permanent bruises
Insecure with guilty excuses
Sorry was never the aid
And now im so desperate to change
That wasn't how I was raised
23 now and I feel ashamed
It was the boy that wanted the stage
But im guessing it all was phase

Cause all I want now
Is to cure
My addiction to blacks
God to mend all the heart
That I broke in the past
And for fixing myself
Be an easier path
And
Time that I lost
Respect I lost
Money that I lost
Friends that I lost
Confidence I lost
Faith that I lost
Ways that I took
Things that I could've
Done differently
Nothing can be
Better than that
Should've could've would've
Head ass
I cannot make up for the past
As it attacks my emotion
Affecting
My transition as a grown man
There's
Puddles of spit by the trash can
I'm smoking
Up on a black not that again
Don't want
Dis addiction but wont let it be
I won't blame my sisters not respecting me
Handled the situation wrong
The fam and my girl
Can't get along

Cause I've been being prideful
Walkin thru life with a blindfold
Haven't been reading my bible
My mistakes were permanent bruises
Insecure with guilty excuses
Sorry was never the aid
Now im so desperate to change