Rounding Third - 1 in 10 Lyrics

I see your face every time I close my eyes
Reminisce on the days you left behind
Came to grips on your life which I despise
I'm not quite sure how I feel inside
Are you aware of the days I spend in pain?
When I try to take all of it day by day
Feeling bleak when I think about four years straight
I'm in contact with the ghost you used to be

Ask me, then I'm fine
But you know when I lie
Wail and weep, sit in grief
Feel my apathy, when you "dot the I's"
And I think I'm moving on
But you're faster than I run
I keep falling back on you
But we always fall through

Heavy weight, still struggling to hold the facts
Gave it all, can't promise that I'll make it back
Lost my way just trying to stay on track
Come back to my space, I've got faith in that
Spend my time just hanging here by a thread
Out of sight, find me trapped inside my own head
Can't replace this vacancy you fled in theft
Soak the words in poison so it pierces bad

I stay awake and let my mind wander
I find it helps me sort through all these problems
Clenching my teeth again
Lacking my poise this season
Clenching my teeth again
For unfamiliar reasons

Forcing the boundaries cause it makes sense
You're running in circles with my head
I'm ashamed to admit that I'm discontent
And I'm not even sure if I want you back