ross tommy - happy•place Lyrics

I know it's most important to focus ahead
But demons I've grown up with
Are still living under my bed, within my head
Under my bed, glad that you said
In case I forgot you're so full of thought
That I thought you would come
From a place of support
For condescending my poetry is none of the sort
I know the bed that they are under
And I know it's not here
But my head is more real than my reality dear
It needs to be free of all of this fear
But I fear that's a machine reality can't steer
My perspective seems to focus
Only on the negative space
When I can't see what's there
Is when I replace autopilot
Fill the void with something that I hate
Something my imagination manifesting creates Then I am quick to confirm
That it's right in front of my face
Thought imagination came from a happy place
But recently I'm finding out
That's not always the case
I've let it get the best of me
And I've lost its control
Now it's nefariously starting to darken my soul
I used to have a small bubble
But now surrounded by giant walls
And I guess I thought imagination
Only came from a happy place
But recently I'm finding out
There's darker places that take up space
I've let it trick my heart and mind
I've let it run my course
And I'm left with not much faith or hope
Not even for myself do I have remorse
I know it's most important to focus
Instead of living a fearful distraction
Never able to concentrate
I've left my trauma under my bed
Within my head, under my bed, glad that you said In case I forgot you're so full of thought
That I thought you would come
From a place of support
For condescending my art
Shows me that you're really smart
I know that trauma ignored
Is never healthy to keep store
Under, under my skin
Nested in my core
And I know it's not here anymore
But my head hasn't prepared for more
Too scared to explore, knowing out is through
I need to be free of fear,
But I fear that's a job too big
For even the angels to do