ross tommy - controlled•by•curiosity Lyrics

I used to really hear the ocean from the shell
At Aunt Lana's house
The first one on Goldenrod
Never knew a sound couldn't be captured m
Manually before I got the first iPod
And I fell in love with her for her bravery
And the tight leather pants she would wear
Thought I really knew everything
Thought she had a cross-eyed teddy bear
"Hey, little sister" got me starting to wonder
Realizing darker worlds existed
Was clueless in hindsight, it's a good laugh
Thought little sister was a nymphomaniac

And the more I remember, the more I understand How f*cked up it slowly creeps on in
Shedding just a bit more light
On what you'd rather not see
But you're a child, so of course
You're controlled by curiosity

He was untouchable like a celebrity
He could do nothing wrong at all
Would write me love notes during period three
Then he seduced me and let me fall
And I was his as I dreamed to be
No way he was taking advantage of me
I'd sleep over and wear his clothes to school
People would think I was trying to be him
I remember thinking to myself, if they only knew He gave me so much pride
I was not allowed to share
At 14, I couldn't grasp how much more
Of what a 19-year-old was sure to be aware

And the more I remember, the more I understand,
How f*cked up he slowly crept on in
Shedding just a bit more light
On what I'd rather not see
But I was a child still then
Controlled by curiosity

He got what he wanted
He made me big, then he made me empty
Abandoned without closure
Was gone with the a lie
Sent more love notes from Baja
When he was really at home all the time
She told me one rainy night in my car
He said I was too clingy, wanted to take it too far
He already did that when he stole what he stole
No care in the world
He just wanted his cake whole
And what I'd rather not see, if I didn't
I suppose I wouldn't have learned
What to red flag in the future
To avoid getting broken or burned
A shame it's a necessity
Corruption and innocence lost
Didn't know really what I was buying
Or how much it even cost

And the more I think about it
The more dots become connected
F*cked up how it all creeps on in
Shedding so many rays of light
On all the darkness
With what we ultimately must coexist with
While a child, controlled by curiosity
Is slowly jaded in micro-doses
Of what they haven't yet got the gist