Rojelio - Living Hell Lyrics

Listen to this pessimistic
Message you're gifted
Before my life takes the toll, it's wishin'
My death is distant and persistent

I'm siftin' out of this twisted mind
I'm f*ckin' evil, but never blind to my kind
In this state of mind I find

I find, I'm not worth the time of life
I live to die
It's so divine, I never shine through the grime
I'm simply blind

To reasons to live
I treason and leaving who give
My actions don't need to be forgiven
When I'm never forgiving

Feel me
But you never feeled me
So kill me
Away from this hell, I sail, death has come to ring the bell

F*ck
Life is hectic, I wrecked it
I'm worthless
A dimwit
I'm told that I'm a piece of shit
Told that I'm a piece of shit

As my mind hits
The rocks I stop to think
But suicidal thoughts push me to the edge of brink
So I never think

My lover wants children I'm hearin'
She really want me to try
Why birth a child just so it can f*ckin' die
So it can f*ckin' die

Mama done told me my lover ain't a real woman
More negativity for the thoughts I'm swoomin
I'm tired
Asked for a vacation and I almost got fired

The man gave me permission to take a break
Vacation from the hardships in life, it's strife by the stake
The day came, worked my ass off a year for this mob
Got a text from the old man telling me, I'm gonna lose my f*ckin' job

But he gave me permission, now he's takin' back what he is given
I swear to god on his mama imma kill him

I'll kill him
And never forgive him
But how would that even make me any better than him

It wouldn't
It shouldn't
I'm better than no one
Even myself
Cause I'm a piece of shit and I wanna burn in Hell

Mi vida es nada
Encatada
Soy veo loco
En mi coco
Tampoco no me gusta
Mi vida es no justa

Reflexíon en mi intencíons
Para pensamiento en tiempo
Feliz nunca, mira mi ceño
Yo quiero muerte en mi sueños

Dead at the stake
I awaken to this fate
Which I'm rappin' in this song
I can't believe life had planned it all along

It's been planned
By a hand
I was born just so I can die
I'll kill myself if it means no one alive will have to cry

Life is hectic, my soul's shell ain't doing well
I'd probably be better off livin' in a prison cell

Life is hectic
It's been hell living amongst this world
But maybe I misunderstood everybody else
Maybe I just can't understand myself
Yeah
Maybe I'm too weak to bring myself above it all
Maybe I'm just tired of waiting for my lover to call
Maybe
Just
Maybe
Yeah

But damn
I can't give up through this journey
This never ending journey for happiness
To finally rest at night without a worry on my mind
Without a worry on my mind
Yeah

Without a worry on my mind
Is quite hard to find
Maybe I'm blind
Yeah I'm blind
Maybe it's been in front of me the whole time

Take it and make it
I'll state it
I'll break it

Break the desolated hated thoughts that surround my mind
F*ck, it's gonna take more than death to kill me off this time

This time
I will find
Another reason to clear this mind
Away from the heartaches
The bullshit
The pain

These voices in my head chant my name
Tell me I can do this thang
Tell me I can do this thang
Tell me I can do this

Just a younglin' hoping I can find the perfect recipe
To better me
To finally not let this pain get the best of me

Imagine
The horrors, the bullshit, the struggles I faced
Remember this face
All because I seemed to be out of place

In this world
The world told me to follow my dreams
As a teen
But put me down when I started rappin'
F*ck you mean

Misunderstood as a low life
As a maggot
As a bitch
The people around me seemed to never even give a single shit

I remember my older sister told this mister something that f*cked with my mind
Telling me, I won't grow up, I won't ever seem to find a dime

Telling me, I have no life
I won't ever love a wife
I won't ever graduate
It's strife, member those words by the knife

I'll f*ckin' do it
I'll f*ckin' do it
And never lose it
Take it
And make it
And break it
Apart from these feelings that's hated

I'll f*ckin' do it
I'll f*ckin' do it
And never lose it
Take it
And make it
And break it
Apart from these feelings that's hated

I'll f*ckin' do it
I'll f*ckin' do it
And never lose it
Take it
And make it
And break it
Apart from these feelings that's hated

I'll f*ckin' do it
I'll f*ckin' do it
And never lose it
Take it
And make it
And break it
Apart from these feelings that's hated

Couldn't let it get the best of me
So I prepare for the world to bring the test to me
It ain't ever getting less than me

What would you do, if you were put down on a daily basis
Would you commit suicide, or would you simply face it

Like Cypress Hill I decided to hit the f*ckin' bong
Challenging the world above me, that's where I went and f*cked up wrong

Bring it
I'll sing it
And ring it and ding it
Hittin' these kittens, I'm kushy
Dickin' you f*ckers down like a pussy
Like a pussy

I f*ckin' wish
I f*ckin' wish
I could make it through this shit
Like a hit from the bong, I've been smoked out all along

I f*ckin' wish
I f*ckin' wish
I could make it through this shit
Like a hit from the bong, I've been smoked out all along