Skies still blue, winds getting cold
Transitions in my life that I don't even know
I'm honestly surprised that I haven't fold
Suicide on your mind it leads a different toll
I say my prayers to the holy lord
Hoping that he's hearing and he ain't getting bored
Of the same ol hopes that I keep wishing for
Still wearing the same ol' clothes that I wore before
I never wore hand me downs, I bought my clothes bigger
So it could fit me in the future, I'm a good thinker
But thinking too much can leave you clinically insane
Ask my momma how much I made her go through pain
Ask my daddy how to keep an animal in a cage tamed
Ask my sister how much I'm scared of fame
Ask my brother if I'm a chump or if I'm bitch made
All I'm saying is I'm proud of who I became
I reached the point where I'm tired of depressing thoughts
Look at all this f*cking time I done bought
But I still think of the end, maybe it'll make me happy then
This the type of shit I don't wanna rap about
But then again there's someone with the same kind of thought
Anger, resentment, yeah I feel that too
Let me tell you my friend, that's the route you don't wanna choose
I've been there, done that, slitting your wrists
And if you don't do it then you a straight bitch
Battling thoughts, don't even know which one is true
Look in the mirror and tell yourself there's not a better you
I make these songs to reach something positive
I don't know what it is but each song is an accomplishment
And Ima rap till the day I die
And f*ck anyone who try to rob me of my pride
I make these songs to reach something positive
I don't know what it is but each song is an accomplishment
And Ima rap till the day I die
And f*ck anyone who try to rob me of my pride
Now my mind going off a tangent
I readjusted my life in which way I wanna angle it
A student first, and let off all my madness
Repeat a verse, nail it down, and then practice
I take notes, practice, and then repeat
If you don't understand that then follow me
A professor on how to get you through in this life
F*ck a chain, f*ck a watch, and a bomb ass wife
Get in yo bag bruh, but never change
Everything in this life will never be the same
Adjust, replenish, prepare yourself for this week
Shit, I got vices too I gotta replenish my weed
Its a choice, it just helps when I get lonely
I been smoking since 12 so when I smoke it brings me back to the old me
The boom bap rap was levitating my high
The amount of syllables in a bar began to multiply
Fitting syllables that shouldn't be there
Like a brown boy levitating in the air
I'm reaching above the clouds, I ain't looking for clout
It's hard to believe in yourself and live with no doubts
But I'm making it possible avoiding every obstacle
Bobbing and weaving shit I could do this with my eyes closed
20/20 vision aiming with accurate precision
My back windows tinted so you can't tell when I'm sinning
My vans stay fresh, Lakers ain't go no creases
City of angels but we also live with demons
I'm a young stud, I call this song Kuz control
0 problems on my mind when I just flow
Listening to veterans, treat them like my brethren
My opponents got it coming when I'm one step of ahead of them
I got records of Eminem, Kendrick, Dre, and Russ
Working on my craft to the fullest Ima make it tough
Not for you, I love making it harder on myself
If I don't what's the point, Im not driven by wealth
Boss around my waist make it feel like a heavy weight rapper belt