January 6 2013, we were hurting
Can't even resist my tears bottled up with fears, things will never get better
Felt like ice chips in my head, frozen thoughts can't fathom what lies ahead, broken heart
Of a mother, couple brother's, bunch of cousins, aunts, uncles and friends that can't believe he's dead
November 10 2015, the day he turns 26
Sitting in my car asking God "why?" cause it still don't make sense
My daughter turn 2 in six days, but I'm ready to celebrate
Knowing that he'll never have the pleasure of having his own child to love beyond measure
He had such a giving heart, but he ain't never have much
Which often led to him giving himself up, this time it ended messed up
I'm sad we didn't spend more time together
But grateful for the time we did spend together
It's no coincidence that we were eating Chinese 4 days before his leave
I wonder how Adrian will remember him, as his loving uncle or his father's brother?
I wonder how his mother has the strength to live
Ah, a product of God's power
I know how I'm supposed to live, I wanna heal but never forget
Yeh, so I gotta keep head up, never let up, gotta strive on cause you're an inspiration to live on
Never give up
We may cry for those we've lost but
We'll rise for those who've fallen
So that they live in us
Yeah, never give up
Even though the pain is haunting
Reminiscence leaves us wanting
What we'll never ever have again
It's tough to lose a loved, and in our case a young one
But death is indiscriminating
Entertained with aggravating mitigated efforts by the unsung, less hurt equals less fun
God is in control though and He keep death on His leash so I gotta be at peace with the conundrum
Ease into numbness and believe His work is undone
Tough to accomplish
But I got this, cause my Rock is you know who
Counted His glory as a loss just to see us through
He conquered death and mastered resurrection
So I wouldn't be surprised if in the new life Julio is resurrected
That's where my peace lies, and I find that confirmation in Ledy's eyes
Her son was taken away, her heart has reason to hate
But that strong woman of faith is an inspiration to live on
Death is but a reminder that we're alive
If we come to find out before we die
We'll be alright (that what we tell ourself)
And life is but a reminder that we will die
If we live a good one we'll be alright
But, is that right?
But, that's a lie (without God)