It Ain't Real, Pt. 2 Video (MV)

She said don't look back
She said don't look back
I never would

But I would change my mind
I would change my mind now if I could

Enjoy the hours outside
Before the day begins to shine so bright
How many days have gone by

Reliving it like some masochist
I've not begun to see the last of this
Tucked away like a villain in a cage
I fulfill my only fate against my will
While the days stand still
I can't wait until every day stands still
Now I'm awake

How could I not look back
How could I not look back on that night
If I had just gone home
If I had just gone home, I'd be alright

This ain't some stitched up dichotomy
There's still a mind and a soul
I'm still alive, I'm still whole
This won't make sense no matter how I see
Eyes wide or eyes closed
I'm still alive, and I'm still whole
There's still a mind, there's still a soul
I'm still alive, and I'm still whole
Now I'm awake

The open wounds they stitched
The open wounds they stitched me to this bed
What have they done to me
What have they done to my aching head

Must I return to the pins and needles
Relieve my mind in somber sleep under the knife
I know this sleep, and it ain't real
For when I wake, I'll wish I'd died
In the worst pain of my life
Won't go away, so hard I try
For when I wake, I'll wish I'd died
Now I'm awake

I can't walk, can't stay still
Another drop, another pill
I can't see, I can't feel this misery, 'cause it ain't real
No it ain't real

It's time to smile for friends and family
Don't understand this pain
Pretend I am okay

Don't tell me this road leads to recovery
With a show of hands, mine's raised
Years worth of plans down the drain
Don't understand
My life's a waste
Pretend I am okay
Now I'm awake

Every hand they lend
Every hand they lend
Can't mask defeat
For every prayer they send
Every prayer they send
Is blasphemy

Wish I could say what I want to say
Your prayers don't do a thing
There ain't no God listening
So if you're gonna send a prayer my way
Might as well not send a thing
I'll burn in hell before I need
Another prayer to put me to sleep
Well there ain't no God listening
Might as well not send a thing
Might as well not send a thing

Won't let these days become years
Won't let these days become years
Won't let these days become years
Won't let these days become years
Won't let these days become years
Won't let these days become years

This ain't my fate
No it ain't real
This ain't my fate
No it ain't real
This ain't my fate
No it ain't real
No it ain't real
It ain't real
No it ain't real

She said don't look back
She said don't look back
I never would
I never would