Roamn DeXastur - In Lightning Lyrics

Pain
Stuck in the rain
Stuck in the storm
I'm suffering again
Been here before and there's nothing to gain
And it sucks and i mourn but the love ain't the same
See I had me a pack but they led me astray
They ain't have my back I ain't have the patience
Now I'm on the path and I'm just a stray
That's traveling the roughest blackest terrain
And I'm struggling
Put everyone above above me
Juggling
No energy left to love me
A discovery of all the hurt I've been covering
No comfort while recovering
And uncovering the dirt from my coffin it's awful
Digging up earth for the fossil
And it's so much worse when it goes in reverse
Couldn't put you first
I was lost too

I'm sorry to all y'all
I'm full of flaws
And I'm always stuck breaking all of my promises
But I wish I could do better
This ain't no suicide letter
I'm selfish and always ahead of myself
I'm missing the me that I was
Before I was missing the love
I'm talking bout drugs
I feel like I'm stuck and I'm wasting my time
Checking my watch it's the end of the line
Seconds tick by as I stare at the wall
Thinking bout all of the time that I lost
Second guessing memories that I've formed
Don't really know who I am anymore
So many things I've ignored
I send the older me to the morgue