In my mind, I look to you
I look to you, trying to make sense of this world
I look to you
In my mind, I look to you
I look to you, trying to make sense of this world
I look to you
Thoughts of you evoke a part of me I've missed
Sometimes I wish that we could sit and reminisce
And I would tell you all the things I did wrong
And how I wish I never strung you along
Lo and behold, we talk a little every day
Sometimes I wish I could've made you stay and
Though you left, you're ever-present in my head
And nowadays you're more a memory instead
Of what we're used to
'Times I wish we could do, what they did in films
And take it back to a place or a time that we shared
A memory despaired, feeling quite rare but you're my only girl I swear
I swear I'll never hurt you like that, but do my words even care?
Sometimes you look at me like I ain't even there
Maybe I'm not. Maybe, I forgot
Everything we are
Everything is lost, in my mind
In my mind, I look to you
I look to you, trying to make sense of this world
I look to you
In my mind, I look to you
I look to you, trying to make sense of this world
I look to you
It's a serious thing I'm tryna to tackle now
Bring me to the planet so I know what I'm in tack of now
Tell me about your smile and how you smile so unequivocally
But only since I left you
Feel like the epitome of burning pain, desert storms and cold rain
And everything you hated in respect of me
Beautifully, you encapsulated honesty
I don't know what I ever did to deserve you, honestly
But bring me back into the moment
I promise I'm not hopeless
Promise I won't trouble you again, I put the onus
Onto my hardship, I graft 'cause I'm the hardest
Passed all that past shit, need a moment to own it
Need a moment to get it right, and let it air
I need a moment to focus, and get it clear
And if I do it, would you let me, call your name?
Or would you need me, to really need to, disappear?
In my mind, I look to you
I look to you, trying to make sense of this world
I look to you
In my mind, I look to you
I look to you, trying to make sense of this world
I look to you
For everything, I look to you