Ink Video (MV)

Can we dim the lights please
Thank you

When you listen to this
You better believe
That my words are real
I don't need a beat
You walked into class
Best now take your seat
Broke into the game
But don't own a key

I live every word
Every rhyme that you heard
Comes from a mind that is hurt
And I think it's absurd
To rap over and over and over and over again
About things you've only overheard

Take a pen to the paper
Well that is my vapor
But ain't that much safer
Tall as a skyscraper
Just call me the Lakers
Cuz my words are Magic
Kareemed
That's the verdict

Draw close all the curtains
I know this much is certain
My heart keeps a hurtin
All the waves of depression
I feel like I'm surfing

I write all the time
I write till I cry
I'll write till I die
I write suicide
I write about life
I write about Nat
I write about this
I write about that
I write till I crack
Like an egg
Splat

Ink flows through my veins
It flows through my brain
It comes from my heart
It drives me insane
It covers the pain to a T
It's the only way I feel
I can freely speak
Yet I'm begging someone to hit shuffle
I'm stuck on repeat

An addiction to writing
It gets me all wirey
New song
I'm excited
Word addict
Won't hide it
Gotta have it
I'll fight you for it

On fire
Defrosted
But never a flake
Call me Tony
A tiger
Man I'm feeling great
Put food on your plate
I write till it's late
God knows it's my fate
Crusader with cape
I'll never escape
Over my mouth
Put the tape
Words cut like a knife
And a picture they paint

Never go through the motions
And drop all your notions
People carefully chosen
Choose wrong
It's like poison

Say you can't rhyme with orange
Then knock the door of the door hinge
We all commit more sins
Making a whore cringe
Magnifying problems
Looking at life
Through a poor lense

These lines
Are mine
That I craft
Tell me I'm crazy
Then I will just laugh
Exploring
Like Dore
I don't need a map
I must be paranoid
Always watching my back

I'm fed up with caring
About what other people think
Doesn't mean I'm living standard free
Just that the number of people around me
Tends to shrink

So I try
And force
Myself
To be
The link
To the past me
To go back to being happy
I'm not being sappy
Just know patience
I'm lacking

So call me what you want
Say I'm too aggressive
But my words are healing
Call em antidepressants
Still poking your finger
"Have you learned your lesson"
Matter of fact
I did
Not to ask y'all a question

Y'all keep on ruling
Just like you're Cleopatra
Bout to make all y'all disappear
Like abra ca dabra
Your demise is upon you
Can't run any faster
You're names on a wanted poster
I'm bout to plaster

Unlike bread
My words'll never grow stale
I write about pain
Does anyone care
Won't say I'm depressed
No more then the man over there
But dreamed of this along time ago
But didn't think it be real

Home videos of a little one
Dancing in his basement
A beautiful smile
A twinkle in his eyes
So innocent
LIttle did he know
Eighteen years later
That dream
He'd be chasing
Still not quite there yet
But I know he'll put the work in

I'll never take full credit
For the good that I do
God above
I give it all to you
The people around me
Even through everything
I love you
Thank you for everything you all do
Scratching the surface
So many more to thank
I could choose
To be real
And be true

But this next line
Is a dedication
A dedication
To someone so personal to me
Someone
Who alot of this came from
And Natalie
I dedicate it to you

I wanted so much to marry you
I loved you
Don't think you ever miss me anymore
But God knows
I miss you
You threw away our years
But at the same time
For the pain
I have to tell you thank you

I turned that pain
Into motivation
I took the dead
Out of dedication
It made me push passed
My greatest expectations
Still you and I
Made a pretty great combination

Maybe one day
Or maybe never
We can talk
Bring all this pain to a halt
Like an investigation
Crime scene
Murder mystery
Dead body
Outline it with chalk
But until then
Even through everything
And the bad things about me said
I still wish you the best

I really do hope you find whatever it is
That you're still looking for
But still one thing I told you
Remains for sure
You'll never
Never find another man
That'll ever
Love you more

So yeah
I cut my heart open
With a switchblade
Now it's time to close it back up
Grab me some band aids
A kit of first aid
In need of some medic aid
These are dark days
Yet at the same time
The best days

So take a snapshot
Take a picture
Barry Allen
It's moving quicker
You'll never hear me whimper
I put that on simmer
The sun
It gets dimmer
We don't always all stand a winner
Ink's thick
I don't need a thinner
Not nearly advanced
But not a beginner

Diving into the inner
Chamber
Enslave ya
Engrave ya
In danger
Entangled
By web
No spider
Peter to Parker
Sky around me's
Growing darker
Switching difficulty level from hard
To harder

My mark is up there
But I'm living down here
Keepin it clean
I don't need to swear
To get a point acrossed
Forgotten
By some
Doesn't mean you are lost
You can call me a caesar salad
I am tossed
But don't need an effect
For a cause

I've said it once
And I'll say it again
I've taken the paper
And written with pen
Mightier than sword
Don't hang on every word
Appreciate what you've learned
In this world
Everything's earned
So many turns
3rd degree burns

I'm taking the micro
I'll give you the scope
Don't call me insightful
I'm not here to gloat

I said this to show
What some of you close to me
Already know
I've hit a bottom in my life so far
My low
But I get back up
I keep on going
And I keep on grindin
And now look at me go

So yeah
The ink does flows through my veins
It fills up my brain
It keeps up with my heart pumping
It covers the pain

It's broughten me closer
But for some
At the same time
Distant
But don't call me bad
Because you
You
Refuse to listen
This ink made me significant
And till next time we meet again
I'm home