Ritho - A EULOGY TO MYSELF Lyrics

I'll dig my grave and lay
Cuz' my face seems to change
It's shape when no ones watching

I try to say my name
But it don't sound the same
Farewell lets drop my coffin

Won't you tell me where to go
Won't you tell me how to be

I just thought I'd mean something to me

Looking at the walls
I don't wanna ever leave
I just don't know who I'm meant to be

I'm changing all my clothes
But the feeling never leaves
I'm just clawing for some self esteem

Tell me if there's hope
Because you know that's all I need
I just want to mean something to me

So welcome to my funeral
Cuz' imma be somebody else
Just watch me smiling through it all
Cuz' I'm sick and bored of myself

So welcome to my funeral
I hope that you're wishing me well
So watch me smiling through it all
Maybe this time i'll like my new self

Push the feels all away
But you know it never takes
I tried but I can't concentrate

Start to feel the shame
How'd I lose a winning game
I'm tired but I can't wash this away

Please just take
Take all the pain away
One day I'll change
Change all the things that I hate

So welcome to my funeral
Cuz' imma be somebody else
Just watch me smiling through it all
Cuz' I'm sick and bored of myself

So welcome to my funeral
I hope that you're wishing me well
So watch me smiling through it all
Maybe this time i'll like my new self

I'll dig
My grave
And lay

Cuz my face seems to change
It's shape
When no ones watching

I try
To say
My name
But it don't sound the same
Farewell
Let's drop my coffin