Riké - Colors Lyrics

The kitchen table
I Would never raise my voice
Never explaining
I never had a choice
Kept you complaining
But you said I was your boy

So much potential
You thought inside your head
But too much error
A part of me was dead
I never spoke up
I'd hide away instead

All the love that i had for you
Respect that was mad for you
Never held up
Was not enough
Couldn't believe it true
And now that im standing here
Your face staring in the mirror
That wasn't love

Stop holding me
Down from my shoulders
I just can't breath
There no moving forward
I need you to know
That I'm nothing like you
While you're black and white
My colors still shine

I m afriad
Of The look on your face
How your stomach turns
You say
That you're just afraid
Of people and their words
But i can't
Help feeling like a mistake
Yeah It f*cking hurts
I'm tired of tiptoeing at your pace
Cause its getting worse

All the love that i had for you
Respect that was mad for you
Never held up
Was not enough
Never believed it true
And now that im standing here
Your face staring in the mirror
That wasn't love

Stop holding me
Down from my shoulders
Cause I just can't breathe
There's not moving forward
I need you to know
That I'm nothing like you
While you're black and white
My colors still shine

I take it hard
I fall apart
Thats not my plan
Not up to par
Can't be a man
And have a heart

But I am a man 'cause I've grown
Now a better man with a voice
Just not the kind that you know
Wouldn't f*cking give you that choice
And you know I'll always be here
No matter what the crowd says
A f*cking queer
A f*cking beautiful mess

In the end I don't know
Where you want me to go
'Cause when he kisses me deeply
I feel right at home
And you cant tell me thats wrong
No you cant tell me that wrong

Stop holding me
Down from my Shoulders
'Cause I just can't breathe
Theres no moving forward
I need you to know
That I'm nothing like you
While you're black and white
My Colors still shine

From the smile on his face
To the look in his eyes
That looks not for you
That look is mine