Ridge - I'm Grateful I Lyrics

It's on my heels and it's got me feeling kind of awful
Like nothing's real and I kind of want to buy a bottle
And break the seal, drown the misery
Another deal to earn another dollar's making
The flesh squeal under another collar
And I watch it peel, let everyone else see

'Cause I used to crawl and there'd be stars within their eyes
And when I'd fall someone would ask if I'm alright
But now I call and they're surprised I'm still alive
I'm only grateful I, I, I'm not quite sure anymore
Ooh, ooh, ooh

I need to steal another passing glance as if
Sex appeal has a convoluted chance that my
Fervent zeal has dragged me to my dreams

I think I might have doomed the days when the work still had an end
The days when my"I'm fines" were in no part pretend
I used to scrawl a loving phrase on each note I'd send with him
It's like I never did
And now I'm only grateful I

Spare me another glance as if my desperation
Will amass a chance in your imagination
That every single plan to fall into stagnation
Is only circumstance

I used to call and you'd run in from any place
With every fall, I plummet further now from grace
I kinda miss the times I couldn't recognize my face
'Cause I still feel out of place
I still feel like a waste

And I'm not quite sure
What I'm grateful for anymore