Ricin - Shut-In Lyrics

I can already feel myself being shut in
I don't wanna make friends, around people my patience runs thin
I cant bring myself to get out of bed
I hide in the dark, alone in my head

I cant deal with everyone i wish i could so bad
I want to be social, i hate feeling sad
Yet the feeling still comes, leaving me feeling like shit
Its been like this for so long, i'm starting to think i deserve it

I hate the way i live, its obscene
Life just floats on by as if it were one long dream
I contribute nothing in the grand scheme of things
I'm probably just as worthless as i seem

I cant deal with everyone i wish i could so bad
I want to be social, i hate feeling sad
Yet the feeling still comes, leaving me feeling like shit
Its been like this for so long, i'm starting to think i deserve it