What if I were still a little kid
Hadn't known what friendship really is
'cause no one ever smiles when they're my age
I still set the table wrong
Would you tell me which side the knife should go on
It's a miracle I'm here today
And I gave up my wildest dreams
Thinking it could make you proud of me
I kept thinking"wait 'til mama sees"
And she did
She found someone new
And when she said goodbye
I told her to
If you're counting up my daddy issues
Go back one
I guess I wasn't the truth
Growing up was like a quiet war
Pack your bags and move to a better school
While daddy spent the money that mama earned
And people used to say take two
Keep one for yourself then give one away
It's the realest lesson that I learned
And I gave up the thought of happiness
Figured I would get it second best
Betting on a table and risking checks
And I did
I found someone new
Ain't it funny asking what he'd do
While never knowing what my daddy would
It don't make sense but it's weirdly good
How'd they raise four kids if one made it
Three turned out worse
With love comes heartbreak
Sometimes ain't it worth it because
Thinkin 'bout the last time that I saw him
Took me 'round the island on a jeep with no doors on it
Taught me that the sun will always shine