Rey 5osa - Never Coming Home Lyrics

I'm never coming home cause it doesn't feel like such
And I can't shake the feeling that they don't like me much
Using passive aggression as a cover-up for what's really a grudge
What's with all the fake love seems all we share is blood
And I've been out for it for so long that I don't look back anymore to see whosever it was
I keep my back against the wall to keep you all upfront
And all it took was for someone to stab my back once
I've been up from the jump and it didn't even take me much
Cause I came from not affording to take the bus
Four cars in my garage and that ain't even a stunt
Cause one of them broke down and ain't been on road for months
I'm never coming home, I'm like for what
Ain't nothing there but strangers that share my blood
Of course I changed, but the change and chains ain't what it was
It was from being out at war and only strangers showing me love
They say home is where the heart is, but what that is
Must be that thing I cut out to split amongst my kids
Anyway what that gotta do with where you live
Hard to be attached to a crib, when you want six
And visiting each will cause you to book trips
You can keep the relation, I'm trying to board ships
SS Fresco on shores of St. Kitts, that's just how deep my brain gets
Can't picture me sitting around doing the same shit
I came from nothing just like you, haven't complained yet
Fact is we were dealt cards from the same deck
Difference is you sat and waited for what came next
I ran to go get them books, look how many I took
I haven't played a spade yet, I ain't got it made yet
But if you add what you'll make in this lifetime, I'm sure I've made that
This ain't even a diss, but you can wear them if the shoes fit
True this, all my energy going to cool shit
But I'll step out of Ruth's Chris, just to roof Chris
And make it back to a warm dish on some calm shit
They say I'm on one, but nah really, I'm on six
Been gone a long time, but I'm still on some Bronx shit
I'm sticking my hands wherever my arms fit
I don't mean any harm, but I'm far from harmless
Smacking teeth gon' get you an orthodontist
I'm just trying to see the things my mom missed
And get my kids to see beyond this
Last name Sosa really on some don shit
How you see the light when your life is beyond lit
F*ck being a bigger person cause I ain't beyond shit
Got a little buzz, spaceship been on since
Last time I seen my mind was in 1999 and it's been gone since