Retrograded - Suck It Up Lyrics

I know I should text you it's getting late
Make sure you're okay cause I know you hate
Sleeping alone in your bed
I'm in my head
I got to get away
I've been doing my best to be
The magic that you see in me
But I'm losing sight of where
I'm going
Going
Going
Going
Going
Going
Going
Going
Going
Go
Going out with your friends
And you don't understand
Why I can't just suck it up
I've been so lonely lately
But I can't communicate it
And I'm scared I've had enough
Now you're calling me
With everything that's wrong today
I wish I could help you but
I don't know what I'm supposed to say
Crying over split ends
Wasted on the weekends
Spending all your money
On coffee and serotonin
I know I need to hold you up when your down
But lately I've been having trouble
Getting off the ground myself
When you're around I level out
That's just not what I need right now
Going out with your friends
And you don't understand
Why i can't just suck it up
I've been so lonely lately
But I can't communicate it
And I'm scared I've had enough
I've been doing my best to be
The magic that you see in me
But I'm losing sight of where I'm going
I'm scared
That I can't just suck it up
I'm scared
That I can't just suck it up
I'm scared
(Oh look he's having a breakdown now cause he can't just suck it up)
You just don't love yourself
I'm scared
I'm scared
Going out with your friends
And you don't understand
Why i can't just suck it up
I've been so lonely lately
But I can't communicate it
And I'm scared I've had enough
I've been doing my best to be
The magic that you see in me
But I'm losing sight of where I'm going