Resistance Band - Four Forty Four Lyrics

I blame myself for my condition
As I'm lying here in bed
Wrought from indecision
All these voices in my head
And though you sleep beside me
Well, I feel you're miles away
I'd count sheep if they weren't hiding
Instead, I think of all that I can't say

Now it's after midnight
As I lie here next to you
I'm feeling tongue-tied
And I don't know what to do

Wide awake or am I dreaming?
(I don't really know)
Is this fake or am I sinking?
(Further in this hole)
What's it take to keep from breaking?
(A little self control)
All those times I'd just let go
Oh, oh no

Now the night's are feeling colder
And the hours are surreal
And though I'm getting older
I cannot grip the wheel
As I'm driving all the daylight
With a fever in my brain
Has got me seeing spots past midnight Now I know I've gone insane
Cos I'm hearing all the voices
That line up in my head
They're talking all the choices
That I should make instead
And when when I listen to them
They always lead me wrong
They're pulling me right through them Those places I belong
And it's left me with a lifetime
Of painful memories
And I'm caught up in the past time
And that's feeding my disease
So I'll push on til tomorrow
From a past that can't be killed
Try to leave behind my sorrow
Find a way to keep me still

Now it's way past midnight (four forty four)
And I don't know what to do
Cos my spotty insight
Has just left me without a clue
Well I'll keep em locked tight
All those words I'd say to you
Cos they don't come out right
When I speak them, they never do
They never do