Repressionist - Selfish Lyrics

Other people's happiness
Is something I'll never have
It's also something that I want to take
I had something but I let it go

I am a selfish man

I f*cking hate hearing stories
Of other people's laughter
I'd rather slaughter myself
Than listen to another lecture

I'm just being selfish and I love it
I'm acting the fool, letting the envy stool

I've had the kind of relationship
Where it was fun and games
But in the end, it was pain and regret
It's all just things I'd rather forget

I'm a selfish man
I'm a piece of shit
Stop trying to make me believe
I am anything different

I f*cking hate hearing stories
Of other people's laughter
I'd rather slaughter myself
Than listen to another lecture

I'm just being selfish and I love it
I'm acting the fool, letting the envy stool

I couldn't give a f*ck
If tomorrow never comes around
I'll let my thoughts consume me
To show that living is to loathe