Rene - THE ELEPHANT IN THE ROOM Lyrics

It's been hard for me to stomach some decisions that I've made
That's why I've been thinking bout the kind of road I wanna pave
I remember being twenty-one and digging my own grave
When you bury every part of you there's to nothing to be saved

Gotta think about it and evaluate the cost
'Cause lately I've been thinking that I'm really better off
I can only blame myself for every person that I've lost
But the people I keep close always say it's not my fault

Tell me am I really wrong? Can you share your point of view?
There's my side and their side, and then there's the truth
So who's the one thats telling it?
When I step into the room I can always see the elephant

The tension that's created is getting difficult to cut
If I'm really not the victim they gone surely call my bluff
You would think that after all this time I've surely had enough
Man I think I've had enough

I been questioning my truth I can't even lie
Always saying who's to blame and not accepting mine
I've been choking on my pride
Hoping I everything I want is really waiting on the other side

(Yeah)

I'm just praying they don't see, all the flaws I got in me
All the times that I critique, myself for being weak
All the times that I can't speak and I claim it as mystique
When they think I'm standing tall I'm really down upon my knees

Kyle getting married, pretty soon I'll have a niece
I just wanna make them proud and be free of all my grief
Even though on most days I don't really have a choice
Man, I'm only making music cause its louder than the noise

And the voices in my head every night before I sleep
Got me thinking I'm a sheep as I'm counting down the days
Thinking all the work that I avoid gonna get my ass some praise
Man I hope I find a better way