Before I blow up
Before I glow up
Before these commas start to show up
And turn to M's
Don't compare me to them
They'll sink before they'll swim
I'll swim before I'll sink
Doubt makes me overthink
Like do I really have talent
Am I ready for this challenge
Can I keep the balance
Between rap & reality
Or will the game turn me to a casualty
Consumed by my ego
Mutilated by my demons
On the outside I'm calm
The voices in my head screaming
Plot my next hit I'm fiendin'
Sabotage my dream
Steal the tv screen to get a fix
Love the attention
Love when my name's mentioned
Love the women
Love the time I m spending being constructive
Used to gunshots complimenting the function
I came up in destruction
Before I'm tired of the fame
Tired of hearing my name
Tired of the headlines
I need me time
This was a dream of mine
To have the world reciting my lines
Now they reciting my life
That shit different
Especially since details always come up missing
This shit like prison
23 hours of shade
Trying to keep my hour of light
While niggas fight for my spot
It's lonely at the top
My biggest fear is going back to the bottom
Back to the robbin'
Back to the killin'
Back to the dealing
Back to that building that lacked building
Staring at a ceiling
As my life sinks in the bed
This the shit I dread
The shit I lock in my head
The shit I put on paper to get more paper
But more paper leads to more haters
See that's something that will never change
So I just charge it to the game