RedBark - Deep End (feat. Petah) Lyrics

I'm in the deep end
Drowning in my regret
Water fill my lungs
Every time I try and breathe in
Pride ain't hard to swallow
When there's nothing to believe in
Thinking 'bout my past
I been dealing with my demons

Thought 'bout where the f*ck I am
And where the f*ck I'm going to
Thought 'bout what I'm dealing with
Addressed what I was going through
Honestly a happy man
But also I'm broken dude
I been through a lot
I don't think you got the closest clue

Mom said that she hates me
She drunk but I just know it's true
She said that I've changed
And I told her that I noticed too
Honestly it hurt so much
But I think that I've heard enough
And hurt enough
Life been filled with pain
But I guess that's part of learning Huh?

I'm a loner with some friends
I'm a stoner till the end
I'm someone who feels lost
I just want the road again

I'm just trine find my way
But I'm dying every day
Treat me like an animal
I'm dying in the cage

So I built up all this rage
I been filled with the anger
Put that shit away
And I just record a banger
Life is f*cking short
So the little shit don't matter
But right now this shit hard
I been broken down and battered
Stepped on I been splattered
Slept on and ignored
No one f*cking listens
Why the f*ck do I record
Tryna put out tracks
I just went to sleep at 4
Hoping that I wake up
To the record label's call

Was just tryna go f*ck the bitch
Not tryna go fall in love
Never gonna text her
But low-key I wish she'd call me up
Even if she doesn't that be okay
Cause I know if she did I'd just go And let the phone ring
Shit I got a problem

Myself I been finding
Realised these last years
The real me's been hiding
Who the f*ck am I
I don't know I'm still deciding
I'm not going to rush it
Cause it's all about the timing

So I take my time
Alan out all my steps
Gotta go decide
Figure out what's next
Cause everybody sad
And filled up regrets
But for that shits no time
Cause life's about cheques