The Red Flannels - If He Could See Me Now Lyrics

He sits on a bed
With a gun to his head
Wishing only that he knew
Where he'd be
In a year
Would he still even be here
Or would he be at the end of a noose
Sometimes the sadness comes
Cause he used to make me so numb
But most times I'm just grateful for his death
Cause if he was still here
He'd probably still be filling my ears
With the sad songs that he wrote about her breath

But if he could see me now
If he could see me now

He stares at the stars
In the back of his car
And he wonders when all of this is gonna end
As he lies to her face
Saying he's too far to save
And that maybe all he needs is just a friend
As he gets ever closer to the edge
He knows there's no way to make amends
And he wonders how he even got here
So he cries out for someone to save him
But he won't let anything change him
Cause he loves it when the stars disappear

But if he could see me now
If he could see me now
If he could see me now
If he could see me now

The day that he died
Was the day I came back to life
And decided that I was gonna be okay
And I lied to myself
When I said that I wanted to die
When all I ever wanted was to live to see a better day
Yeah, I've been waiting
I've been waiting
And I've been changing
And now I'm better than I ever could've been
But if he could see me now
If he could see me now
If he could see me now
I know he wouldn't be the same

I wish he could see me now, so he'd know that he's okay